“Authenticity is not something we have or don’t have. It’s a practice — a concious choice of how we want to live. Authenitcity is a collection of choices we have to make everyday. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.” –Brene Brown
Today I want to explain why I think being genuine is so important.
Sometimes when you’re going about life you just feel like a failure. You begin to think that everyone else has it all together, but they don’t. If you say that everything is perfect and you have your life completely figured out and there’s never any complications, well, you’re lying. The truth is, none of us really know what the heck we’re doing.
I’m pinned under the weight
Of what I believed would keep me safe.
So show me where my armor ends,
Show me where my skin begins.
Like a final puzzle piece
It all makes perfect sense to me…
The heaviness that I hold in my heart belongs to gravity.
The heaviness that I hold in my heart’s been crushing me.
I’ve been worried all my life,
A nervous wreck most of the time.
I’ve always been afraid of heights,
Of falling backwards, falling backwards.
I’ve been worried all my life…
-Pluto, Sleeping at Last
I’ve written a little bit about this and probably mentioned it in a few of my other posts. First of all, I would like to say that this post is not attention seeking. It is simply another struggle of mine. Not everyone wants to talk about these kinds of things, especially online, where most of what we see is everyone’s highlight reel. But, that’s not what I’m about, this is raw honesty. I’m not looking for pity, my goal is to just be real because that’s what this blog is all about.
There’s the story I have heard quite a bit from the majority of people I know. It goes something like this: “I was born in this state, in this town, and I grew up in the house. I took my first steps in this house, and on the wall, there are markings of my height that kept track of how I grew throughout the years. I celebrated all of my birthdays here. My best friend lives down the street and we’ve known each other since we were three years old. This is my home, I can’t imagine living anywhere else.”