Why do you complain, Jacob?
Why do you say, Israel,
“My way is hidden from the Lord;
my cause is disregarded by my God”?
Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Sometimes in life, things happen that I don’t understand. My automatic response is to worry and overthink things until I’m so stressed out I can’t even function properly. I know You don’t want that for me. You always have Your hands extended to me, but sometimes I’m too stubborn and prideful to take them. I want to think I can do things on my own, but clearly, I can’t. Without You, I can’t take a single breath, let alone try to sort out my problems. You have told me so many times to cast my burdens on You, why have I not listened? Abba help me to trust You, even when I can not see. Even when I don’t know what will happen or where I’ll end up, I’ll trust You. Even though people have let me down and broken my trust so many times, I’ll trust You. For You Abba, are trustworthy, You have never let me down. You have never given me a reason not to put my faith in You……
I wrote that prayer a little while ago in my journal and was just re-reading it the other day. It seems like it’s always relevant to me. I have a problem with trust and sometimes struggle with anxiety.
Isaiah chapter 40 has been on my heart lately. I just keep reading it over and over again. Sometimes I feel so discouraged. There are so many unknowns, so many things to worry about, so many things to overthink… It’s exhausting.
However, Abba is good, He is always good.
I am in a season of waiting right now, and it’s frustrating. Sometimes Yahweh feels distant and I just feel like I can’t find Him. Sometimes I forget to pray, and sometimes I would rather sit and worry about all my problems instead of handing them over to Him.
That’s not the right way to go about things! But I am human, I make mistakes. Yahweh is working on me, and I’m learning. The truth is, I’ll always be learning, even when I’m eighty-six-years-old and I’ve lived my life and read the entire bible a few times, I know that Yahweh will still have things to teach me. I’m never gonna know it all. I’m never gonna be perfect, but that’s okay.
He wants all of me, all of my brokenness, all of my tears, all of my joy, everything. His love is unconditional.
This is what he is teaching me and what I need to remind myself of on a daily basis:
He never promised we wouldn’t go through struggles, but He does promise to be there for us when we go through them.
He promises to take care of us.
He promises to uplift us.
He promises to give us strength when we feel weak.
He promises to fight for us.
He promises to listen
He promises to be with us. He’s not gonna leave, people leave… People let us down. But Yahweh is trustworthy.
My friends, if you ever feel discouraged, like life is just a mess and you feel like there is no end to your struggles, (And if you’re human, you will!) read His promises! Remind yourself of these things. Write them down, speak of them throughout the day, it really really helps I promise! Wait on Him.
Do this instead of worrying. Worrying does not solve anything. And just know that you’re not alone! We all go through things, it’s a part of life.
“The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” -Deuteronomy 3:18