Today is Beautiful

Dear Readers,

I haven’t really written much for my blog in a while. I’ve been “busy” and somewhat distracted by other things… Which is what I want to write about today.

Life is crazy. We all have goals we want to reach, big dreams, little dreams, whatever it may be. But sometimes those things can be a distraction, even just our daily goals.

I often find myself so focused on the things that need to be done that I don’t make time for anything else. After all, that gigantic pile of laundry and all my homework won’t do themselves. I don’t make enough time for other things that don’t seem quite as important at the moment, like reading my Bible, journaling, praying, and writing for my blog. Or any other hobby that I enjoy doing.

I have to get that thing done. There’s always something. Sometimes it’s not just little tasks that need to be done, sometimes it’s bigger than that. I feel like I’m always waiting for something to happen. There’s always some sort of goal I’m desperately trying to reach. In my mind, I think as soon as that objective is accomplished, or as soon as I get to where I’m “supposed” to be, then everything will be okay and I can be truly happy.

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Looking back, I can say with full confidence, that’s not how life works. I’ve achieved things, met those needs, reached a few goals, and at the end of the day those things are not what made me happy. All my problems were not magically repaired simply by attaining a goal. Yes, it gave me a sense of accomplishment, but it didn’t fix my life.

Throughout the day I ask myself “What can I do today to make my future better? How can I make my goals achievable?” Don’t get me wrong, ambition is a great thing, it really is. But more often then not I find myself just trying to “get by,” gotta get through the day, suffer through the week, wait for this month to be over. Before I know it, years have gone by, and I look back wondering where it all went. What the heck am I doing with my life? This isn’t living.

Yahweh has been trying to teach me this for years, and whenever I get stuck in the tiresome routine of everyday life I’m reminded of it. He says: “Be still, step back and take a breathe, sit here with me for a moment. You don’t have to do anything, just sit in my presence and rest.”

It’s in those moments that I have everything I need. I feel perfectly content. I’m not thinking about chores or my homework or the long list of things that cause me stress, day in and day out. No, in those moments I’m only thinking about what Yahweh is speaking to my heart: “Be still and know that I am God.”

God has to stop me and tell me this every once in a while. That’s all I need, and once again I feel refreshed and ready to take on life, but this time with a new mindset.

Breathe. Just breathe. It’s okay to stop. It’s okay to take a moment to focus on something other than a task list. Not only is it okay, but Yahweh wants that. He wants us to take time to meet with Him every day. He wants us to sit at His feet and just know that He’s there, that HE IS GOD.

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This is what I’ve been learning…

“Life is not the mountain tops, it’s the walking in between.” -Ben Rector

Just take each day at a time. AND LIVE. Don’t just wait for it to end so you can move on to the next thing. Sit in the presence of Yahweh and rest, take time to read and pray and seek HIM before anything else.

Take time for the things you’re passionate about. Whether it’s reading, writing, dancing, or playing an instrument, or whatever else it may be, DO IT. Watch the sunset, stargaze, climb a tree, stop and smell the flowers, listen to music, and I mean really listen to it, think about the lyrics and the melody, and all the passion that someone else poured into it. Spend time with the people you love, and do your best to be present in every moment.

Don’t spend so much time existing that you forget to live. This is life, these little things are what make it beautiful. It’s not about that view you get to see for a few minutes when you reach the top of a mountain. It’s about the climb, and every step you take to get there.

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“Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours still remain…”
Rob Thomas  – L i t t l e  W o n d e r s  

I still ask myself what I can do to make my future better each day, but I make a point to remind myself: “What can I do to enjoy today?” It cultivates joy and gratefulness, while at the same time maintaining a forward-thinking attitude.

Thanks for taking time to read my thoughts, it means so much to me! I love you all! Until next time, don’t forget to stop and smell the roses…

Sincerely, Bri

Dear Mom

Dear Mom,

When I was little I was often asked what I wanted to be when I grew up. I had many aspirations, a teacher, a doctor, a ballerina, a musician perhaps, but what I wanted more than anything, was to be you. I still do.

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Reckless LOVE

When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me
You have been so, so good to me
When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me
You have been so, so kind to me

oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
And I couldn’t earn it, and I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away

There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up

Coming after me
There’s no wall You won’t kick down

Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me

-Reckless Love, Cory Asbury

Dear Readers,

Let me just start by saying I love this song. From the first time I heard it, it impacted me in such a powerful way. Perhaps it doesn’t make sense to some. Why would we describe God’s love as reckless? Isn’t that a bad thing?

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The Importance of Being Genuine

“Authenticity is not something we have or don’t have. It’s a practice — a concious choice of how we want to live. Authenitcity is a collection of choices we have to make everyday. It’s about the choice to show up and be real. The choice to be honest. The choice to let our true selves be seen.” –Brene Brown

Dear Readers,

Today I want to explain why I think being genuine is so important.

Sometimes when you’re going about life you just feel like a failure. You begin to think that everyone else has it all together, but they don’t. If you say that everything is perfect and you have your life completely figured out and there’s never any complications, well, you’re lying. The truth is, none of us really know what the heck we’re doing.

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I’ve Been Worried All My Life

I’m pinned under the weight
Of what I believed would keep me safe.
So show me where my armor ends,
Show me where my skin begins.
Like a final puzzle piece
It all makes perfect sense to me…
The heaviness that I hold in my heart belongs to gravity.
The heaviness that I hold in my heart’s been crushing me.

I’ve been worried all my life,
A nervous wreck most of the time.
I’ve always been afraid of heights,
Of falling backwards, falling backwards.
I’ve been worried all my life…

-Pluto, Sleeping at Last

Dear Readers,

I’ve written a little bit about this and probably mentioned it in a few of my other posts. First of all, I would like to say that this post is not attention seeking. It is simply another struggle of mine. Not everyone wants to talk about these kinds of things, especially online, where most of what we see is everyone’s highlight reel. But, that’s not what I’m about, this is raw honesty. I’m not looking for pity, my goal is to just be real because that’s what this blog is all about.

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Home Is Where My Heart Is

Dear Readers,

There’s the story I have heard quite a bit from the majority of people I know. It goes something like this: “I was born in this state, in this town, and I grew up in the house. I took my first steps in this house, and on the wall, there are markings of my height that kept track of how I grew throughout the years. I celebrated all of my birthdays here. My best friend lives down the street and we’ve known each other since we were three years old. This is my home, I can’t imagine living anywhere else.”

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L O V E L Y

“The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself.” -Maya Angelou

Dear Readers,

Today’s post is about positive body image and self-love. I know it’s talked about a lot, sometimes over-talked about, but that doesn’t make it any less important. Some people make fun of it, but that’s because they don’t understand it. Things like eating disorders are a legitimate problem, and should never be taken lightly. All the talk about “loving yourself” might sound kinda silly, and it can get to a point where it’s just self-absorption. But, coming from someone who has struggled with self-hate, this is my take on it.

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Adventures in Road-Tripping

|| “The mountains are calling, and I must go.” -John Muir ||

Dear Readers,

Oh hey, it’s February! I know I haven’t been posting much, and I promise there’s a good reason for it. I’ve been…. busy… Oh, ya know just, moving halfway across the country with my family. I wish I could blame all my lack of writing on that, but I admit, part of it is just procrastination, (too many episodes of Psych tbh) It’s not because I don’t enjoy writing this blog, I really do! But sometimes I even procrastinate things I love doing.  I haven’t even written in any of my journals in several weeks… *gasp*

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Soar

 

Why do you complain, Jacob?
    Why do you say, Israel,
“My way is hidden from the Lord;
    my cause is disregarded by my God”?
Do you not know?
    Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
    and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
    and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
    and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint.

-Isaiah 40:27-31

Sometimes in life, things happen that I don’t understand. My automatic response is to worry and overthink things until I’m so stressed out I can’t even function properly. I know You don’t want that for me. You always have Your hands extended to me, but sometimes I’m too stubborn and prideful to take them. I want to think I can do things on my own, but clearly, I can’t. Without You, I can’t take a single breath, let alone try to sort out my problems. You have told me so many times to cast my burdens on You, why have I not listened? Abba help me to trust You, even when I can not see. Even when I don’t know what will happen or where I’ll end up, I’ll trust You. Even though people have let me down and broken my trust so many times, I’ll trust You. For You Abba, are trustworthy, You have never let me down. You have never given me a reason not to put my faith in You……

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